Hello my lovelies,
It’s been awhile since I have babbled on and well…I’m in a babbling mood. Besides, that is part of the reason I started this blog to begin with! Girl Brain and Naughtiness! I’m still having issues with people who come back into my life after being gone. I swear it doesn’t happen to anyone else. This time, it was Stuntman. Remember him? If not, you can go back and read The Perfect Stranger. It’s one of the few true stories in the naughty section I have written.
He emailed me the other day and we chatted almost all night. He’s been very busy with work. I didn’t flat out ask him where he had been for a year, but I did make mention that he had missed out on a lot. He said he was well aware. As we were chatting back and forth, I had no anger and I wasn’t upset he had been gone. I was just happy he was back…but was he? The next day I was questioning myself. What if he kept contacting me? How much do I let him in? What if he disappears again? I asked one guy that I trust and I asked one girl. The consensus was “Take a chance if you like him but remember it’s taking a chance”! HAHA. Great. I decided if we talked again that he would just be a cautionary friend. Stuntman said he was single… I would hope that he was honest with me, but that’s all I hope of anyone. Now of course I haven’t heard from him again. Hehe. Such a weird life I have.
In other news, I am tired of my body. No not really, I just know I have gained a bit of weight since Mr. Super Sexy disappeared (damn pattern in my life). I’m not using that as an excuse, but I do know it affected me more than I would like to admit. Remind me to be cautious of long distance relationships!! Refer to Girl Brain vs long Distance Relationships. Ha funny, Mr. Super Sexy found me on the same site Stuntman did!
I am heavier than I have ever been and I hate it. I have been patient with myself,changed my eating, and have been kind of waiting for the weather to cool off so I could get back into a groove and go hiking/walking etc. Well no more. I’m tired of waiting AND Halloween is coming! I want to be 10 lbs lighter by Halloween in 37 days and I want to be 30 pounds lighter by Thanksgiving. Can I do it? I bet I can get close!! I have done it before! Usually I have something driving me to do it. This time, it’s all for me. I decided to get Insanity.
I am pretty positive it’s going to kill me. It looks hardcore but that’s what I need. I need my ass kicked and no one is going to do it for me. I decided to do this for the winter instead of my Bikram Yoga. Bikram is great, I really love it, but I don’t lose weight from it. My plan is to keep at least a weekly blog post on Insanity and once I have finished the first 30 days, then I will post it. So wish me luck. As I said, it may kill me, but at least I’ll be drop dead skinny hehe!
So yeah really my life is boring right now. It’s all work, school, sleep, writing, looking for jobs, and wondering WTH guys are thinking. Hey guys!! What are you thinking?? Let me in!! Nah on the other hand, don’t. I might fall in love with you haha!
I’m out lovelies, thanks for letting me babble for a short bit. Hoping I get a chance to get some naughty inspiration soon, but who knows. I never do